I've done it..
after all this time..
being able to talk to him again like we used to a year ago or maybe even two..
I'm glad..
we're talking once more..
NO more awkward situations..
NO more just a Hello greeting..
No more being strangers..
I've finally broke the silence between us after all these time..
and finally able to talk normally again like those times..
It happened just now at the hospital while visiting his elder sister..
i'm relief that throughout our whole conversation, there was no need of me to figure out what to say..
it came naturally as always..
and for once..
i dont mind..
i dont mind the fact that he is still a smoker..
and for once i dont mind anything about him anymore..
i feel great..
starting anew..
and not being afraid of being near him..
the past is the past..
and let bygones be bygones..
it doesnt matter anymore..
as long as we're happy..
that's what matters..
HAPPINESS..
n_n


This photo shows how happy they are together..
like what i felt being able to talk to him once again..
n_n

I hate this feeling..
The feeling of being insecure..
the feeling of being alone..
Just u, u and only u..
i cant stop fidgetting..
I've absolutely nothing to do..
I think i'm going insane..
Having second thoughts in everything i do..
I just dont get it..
Whats happening to me..
Was it because of the stupid result..
Those jerks..
Life being to boring at times..
Unable to talk to him..
Missing my Girlfriends..
Missing my 'FAMILY'..
Missing my WIFE..
Missing my pretty 'girlfriend'..
Missing the times playing with the GAMERs in school..
Just missing everything i once had..
Even missing the teachers..
espacially my buddy's 'best friend'..
I miss his personality and character..
Hope he will still continue to teach me next year..
I'm going mad..
Talking randomly like this..
totally weird..
But i cant help it..
And i'm starting to think that jerry yan is a mega hot hottie..
plus i cried over reading a book..
my first time crying over the story in the book..
Stupid ending..
Especially in TEMPTED..
How could they..
Leaving me in suspense after saying SHE died..
Zoeybird and Heath Ferro died..
Die i tell u..
hate that Kalona..
Idiotic Kalona..
And what a HO that neferet is..
OMGD..
What did i tell u..
i'm going mad..
maybe even insane..
being overly sensitive about that book..
oohh, i just finished reading MUMMY KNEW just now..
In HARRIS..
For like 1/2 an hour or so..
My first time..
Should do it again sumtime..
know what..
i better stop here..
Cause i'm gonna watch SAW 6 later..
ALONE..
cause i'm the only one who seems really interested in SAW..
The rest just cant stand it..
except for my dad..
my funny loving dad..
i really should go..
so, Goodbye..
i'll post again soon..
i mean really soon..
bye..
n_n..

Kim Bum is super-mega cute!!

Cant believe i listened to Kevin Jonas interview on 91.3fm at the same time as Prevena and Nadiah.. Quite interesting listening to his wedding plans and all.
sides, i'm watching Romantic Princess on mysoju.. Just now in school i watch MOMO Love episode 4 with Nadiah for a while before moving on to Jurong Point with Her, Aaron, Prevena, Nazreen.. since our aim was to eat at banquet, we straight away went to banquet and found a good spot., Let me tell u, i'm soo going to be putting on a kg for finishing off Nazreen's seafood fried rice for her! How could u! no wonder ur incredibly skinny!
After they left, i walked around JP with Gillian to GIO GIO and HARRIS! seems like the marketplace has become our usual hangout nowadays...
At harris, i read this book called MUMMY KNEW by LISA JAMES which is a very sad story of a girl whose been abused by her dad and even though the mum knew bout it she doesnt take action against it. I'm soo gonna buy the book! OOOHH and TEMPTED has come out!!!!! OMGD! in that book, HEATH DIED AND PLUS, Zoey DIED too for trying to save HEATH even though its too late! Idiot KALONA! HE SUXS! I was so sad knowing that my 2 best characted died!! so hating that KALONA guy! alrighty, gonna continue watching romantic princess so have a very gd nite!!

here's the tempted cover page:

i'm bored;
have absolutely nothing to do;
feeling empty inside;
but he made it alright;
they are still together even though they're in different school;
their friendship seems stronger than anything;
i cant wait for friday;
hope the primary 6 pupils will get their goals achieved;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Kah Fai's lil' sister;
really wanna meet all my peeps tmr;
even though i dont have school tmr;
need more chocolates;
listening to one time- justin bieber;
gonna watch Boys Over Flowers episode 18 part 2/4 later;
LEE MIN HO is damn Damn DAmn HOT;
Kim Bum is hot too;
cant wait to watch MOMO love episode 4;
i'm blabbering waaay tooo much..;
i'll end my post here;
AEM on nursing is next week;
IDA result is this Wednesday;
I'm overly excited for both events;
The End;
n_n;

Simply HOT!!

My friends,
I’ve been thinking all night and I think its time I tell u what have been lingering on my mind through out this whole confusion. And if after u read it and u find it offensive or whatever, I won’t blame u. everyone one has a choice to make. U decide

Firstly, I don’t know what really started this whole confusion about. What I know is that 1-day we’re ok, the next day we’re not. And I guess from there on, things started getting worse. I guess the only person who knows what really happen is her cause I’m like totally clueless as to what started the mess.

Secondly, since we’re not okay, I didn’t linger around her anymore except when u guys are there and I have somethings to talk or ask about if not I’m not even 2m near her.
Starting of this year, knowing that she dislike it when I’m around, I sat with arfina, wany and Arafat during malay class and didn’t even join the group as she will show her mood swing. I’m wondering of u guys ever noticed her mood swing or not as u guys like are acting totally fine whenever she does that. During NDP, u guys should already have known that we never talk or even see each other and it was weird whenever she’s having one of her moods, u guys seems so quiet and space out as though idk like totally deep in thought. But whatever anyway..

Lastly, I don’t mind her moods but I really dislike it when she uses THAT to spoil others moods. Like take example, DEEPAVALI at P. I mean idk why but this is what I observe.
Once I get into the house and like 15mins later her mood changes to like as though she’s PMSing or sumtin. And she seem to spoil some of ur moods as i see the change in expression from u ppl. I wonder why cant she be chirpy and just be happy and cast aside our difference for that day as we are celebrating some one else’s festivities. Don’t spoil it by making people worry bout ur MOOD..

Last Lastly, I don’t get why she is showing attitude to my dearest ’sister’ an things have been tooo toooo weird lately. And the reason why I really think that the both of u are not the middle person as u guys are just not the middle person. Because u guys were never really affected by things whole thing and u haven’t known the whole truth except for 1 whom I know is the real middle person as she have been affected badly by this. I cant tell u how she’s affected as it will make things more worse. Some of u may think that I’m the BAD one but whatever anyway. I’m done caring bout this so whatever u think it doesn’t really affect anything.. Blame me if u want too but I’ve made myself clear on my previous post that for once I’m officially done.

The end is the beginning of a new journey:

After that post, i spent an 1 or more idk; i left the school at 2.45pm;
with jun ming and the sec 2 gamers playing counter strike.. Sadly, since
im rusty with the game and with a whole new different map.. the sec 2 seems
to be more skillful than me and jun ming.. But we manage to turn the tables
around.. I just found out that jun ming is a very good sniper as he was able
to kill the opponent at a very far range and very acurately too..
It was fun watching him and all of them playing and cussing at one another
and i just cant seem to stop laughing the whole time.. I think i should buck
up my gaming skills and be a good killer(sadly im a poor one at that) and
I know i shouldn't spend too much time in school playing games but playing
these type of games with guys just seems to be soo fun and for once,
i dont think of anything that always bothers me.. I'll spent some
time with them again one day and enjoy it as next year,
my 'o's are starting and soooo... this month and the next.. i should just relax and have fun!!
Cant wait to watch the movie Caroline in 3D with u people next week!!
Hope the girls are able to join me and not just make it as a date
for me and my scandal only.. I'll post more thingies soon..
n_n

my dearest friends..
i know u guys dont like to be caught up with my stupid situation with her but guess what, i'm officially wanting to stop it for now. Cause with the events thats been happening all this while.. the situation has gotten worse as u guys are inflicted in this too.. I've been calm all this while, not wanting to care bout her for sooooo many months but since this few recent months of havoc with her pissing all of u .. i really am starting to get pissed.. Even though at first i dont mind bout the current changes happening to my friends, this has gone toooo tooooo far.. i hate it when the people who dislikes me, starting looking down and especially pissing of my dearest friends.. If u really wanna be pissed, why not get pissed at me and stop showing that attitude to my friends.. and even though u said to the others that u dont mind.. i know u do cause u cant cover that mood swing of yours.. I'm not here posting up this post just trying to call u a bad person and all but its just facts.. oh and BTW, i dont even know the reason why we actually arent ok.. i guess u do cause ur the one who started this whole thing up.. oh and the dearest friends of her.. please stop showing attitude to my friends.. i know that her bad mood is very easily pass on to others but dont be the person who u aint.. especially a certain someone who i'm about to officially lose faith in.. We use to be close but i guess with a different environment, u started changing to.. ur becoming more and more like a stranger to me.. and i really feel that it was a waste, to even start.. but i guess in time to come.. i will end it.. just not now..

My dearest dearest people whom i love to hang out with..
u guys are freakingly awesome! thanks guys for being the best even though things were really like 'shingz'.. u guys really are simply the best! thanks for being just u and not some hypocrites.. n_n
oh and for my nisa related sister:
u were simply the best! ur a true friend cause no matter what u stood up for ur rights and isnt afraid of what will ever happen.. u really are an 'sister' and gd friend. it was a waste she mistook u cause what i see is that, she has just lost someone who is juat an original.. THANKU THANKU THANKU THANKU my 'SISTER'!!

Having friends means that u are suppose to cherish them and be there for them.. But now, she has officially been strike out of my list and i will never make the effort to be friends with her again.. cause there's no point in doing so since she was never truthful to the others..

here's a picture which reminds me of my fabulous friends!!